Empty again
Sunken down so far
So scared to fall
I might not get up again
So I lay at your feet
All my brokenness
I carry all of my burdens to you
Chorus:
All of these things
I’ve held up in vain
No reason nor rhyme
Just the scars that remain
Of all of these things
I’m so much afraid
Scared out of my mind
By the demons I’ve made
Sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
Oh, sweet Jesus, never ever let me go
So happy to love
Yet so far to go
You lead me on to where I’ve never been before
I found another beautiful singer who captured my soul just as Corrinne May did – Priscilla Ahn! Her songs are not as melancholy as Corrinne but equally melodious with an easy swing to her tunes. It makes you just want to lie down on the grass, observe the clouds and dream away.
Hold your head up high
Laugh that silvery laugh of yours
For you know how beloved you are
The tears are gone
They are but the days past
Even if they come
They never bring about the sting it once did
Remember the path you once tread
How you felt you’ll never make it
The many days of giving up
The dark days whereby you felt alone
The times when you scrap your knees upon the pavement
Bleeding, cold and lonely
Those are the days gone past
The sun seem brighter now
The clouds pink in shade
No longer dark and threatening
The wind gentle upon your skin
Bringing warmth instead of cold
Dear one
Throw your head back and laugh
For better days are ahead
More sure of the steps you take
There’s confidence glowing from you face
Finally you found out who you are
And to whom you belong
Finally the cold wind of adversity is blown away
Dear one
Throw your head back and laugh
For better days are ahead
I was listening to this song Miracle of the Moment on my Windows Media Player and I thought about a question that Gabe both shared and blogged about recently.
If you could travel back into time, would you change anything?
My initial answer was of course! I would go back and reverse some of the foolish mistakes I’ve made. Maybe even warn the then me to avoid the pitfalls I’ve fallen into. Gabe however pointed out that those circumstances shaped me to be the person I am now. I couldn’t accept his reasoning. For me, it is better to avoid the hurts, sorrows and pains and fill them with the good memories. Who knows it might made me a better person than I am now. (This is a perfectionist’s thought :p)
Today however I had a different perspective. I took a quick tour into my past – the downs, the unhappy moments, the painful moments and for a short glimpse I saw how those memories became gems in my life… but that’s if I stop holding them too tightly in my heart. As I let them go piece by piece and placed it in God’s hand, they began to sparkle, lighting my way ahead instead of hurting me.
I felt somewhat liberated today… free to let go of the past follies, free to forgive, free to put less importance in what people may say or think about me, free to laugh and maybe tear a little.
Maybe I’m in the process of healing.
Maybe it’s time for letting go.
Steven Curtis Chapman
Miracle Of The Moment
It’s time for letting go
All of our “if onlies”
Cause we don’t have a time machine
And even if we did
Would we really want to use it
Would we really want to go change everything
Cause we are who and where and what we are for now
And this is the only moment we can do anything about
So breathe it in and breathe it out
And listen to your heartbeat
There’s a wonder in the here and now
It’s right there in front of you
And I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment
There’s only One who knows
What’s really out there waiting
And all the moments yet to be
And all we need to know
Is He’s out there waiting
To Him the future’s history
And He has given us a treasure called right now
And this is the only moment we can do anything about
So breathe it in and breathe it out
And listen to your heartbeat
There’s a wonder in the here and now
It’s right there in front of you
And I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment
And if it brings you tears
Then taste them as they fall
Let them soften your heart
And if it brings you laughter
Then throw your head back
And let it go
Let it go, yeah
You gotta let it go
And listen to your heartbeat
And breathe it in and breathe it out
And listen to your heartbeat
There’s a wonder in the here and now
It’s right there in front of you
And I don’t want you to miss the miracle of the moment
And breathe it in and breathe it out
And listen to your heartbeat
There’s a wonder in the here and now (here and now)
It’s right there in front of you
And I don’t want you to miss the miracle
Of the moment
When you first held my hand and we walked, we were such a clumsy couple. Sometimes you would step on my toes and other times I would trip over you. Our moves were comical to outsiders. To us however, the efforts seem daunting. We expected to glide over the sidewalks just as skaters dance on ice yet it is a challenge to even walk a few steps without tripping over each other.
There were tears.
There were frustrations.
There were many sorry and forgive me.
And there were many…
Let’s try this together again.
So we picked up where we left.
We talked.
We communicated.
We turn aside from our interest.
We chose to look at what’s best for the other person.
We learned to laugh
… at our mistakes
… at our tripping over each other
Slowly we learn to trust, to value our vulnerability as we unveil our hearts to each other.
We are not the same.
Our steps when started were not aligned.
However as the music begins to play a lot more longer, we learned to dance together.
You the lead and me the follower.
Slowly my head begins to rest upon your shoulders.
Your grip relaxes and soften.
We begin to dance…really dance as one.
Dear love, let’s dance.
I’ve watched the sunrise in your eyes
And I’ve seen the tears fall like the rain
You’ve seen me fight so brave and strong
You’ve held my hand when I’m afraid
We’ve watched the seasons come and go
We’ll see them come and go again
But in winter’s chill, or summer’s breeze
One thing will not be changin’
We will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We’ll spin and we’ll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I’ll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance
Sometimes it’s hard to hold you tight
Sometimes we feel so far apart
Sometimes we dance as one
And feel the beating of each others hearts
Some days the dance is slow and sweet
Some days we’re bouncing off the walls
No matter how this world may turn
Our love will keep us from fallin’
And we will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We’ll spin and we’ll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I’ll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance
The music will play
And I’ll hold you close
And I won’t let you go
Even when our steps
Grow weak and slow
Still I’ll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we, will dance
I’m listening to the soundtrack of Beethoven Virus. The Korean ballads and instrumental music just relaxes my whole being and bring about a warm feeling of happiness.
You must be wondering why I like Korean ballads even though I don’t understand a word they are singing… and that is certainly strange for a word lover like me who scrutinize the lyrics more than the music.
I think after a day of being overwhelmed by words and examining the meaning behind them, I find it a comfort to disengage from all of that and just enjoy the music for what it is; to follow the ups and downs of the rhythm and allow the world without words to come and still the soul.
Love even more the One whom this song is written to.
Captivated by Vicky Beeching
Your laughter it echoes like a joyous thunder
Your whisper it warms me like a summer breeze
Your anger is fiercer than the sun in its splendour
You’re close and yet full of mystery
Ever since the day that I saw Your face
Try as I may, I cannot look away, I cannot look away…
Captivated by You
I am captivated by You
May my life be one unbroken gaze
Fixed upon the beauty of Your face
Beholding is becoming, so as You fill my gaze
I become more like You and my heart is changed
Beholding is becoming, so as You fill my view
Transform me into the likeness of You
This is what I ask, for all my days
That I may, never look away, never look away…
No other could ever be as beautiful
No other could ever steal my heart away
I just can’t look away…
I wonder how You sound like when You laugh. The time I came close to hearing that was in the LRT. You surprised me when you suddenly spoke. The delight and joy ringing loudly in the tone of Your Voice. I can’t help but be infected by Your joy. *Smile*
The other day whilst in my semi consciousness, I felt Your hands on my chest, gently comforting me. *Smile* That was wow; astonished that You would care enough to reach out from the invisible to the visible realm.
I forgot. Just like Peter, I took my eyes off You. The moment I did, the waves and the wind broke my strength and I find myself sinking once more. You reached out, took my hand and brought me back into the safety of the boat. Trembling, I expected reproach. Instead You embraced me and whispered Your peace into my heart. I’m sorry I forgot.
Hearing that You love me still bring tears to my eyes.
I’m not so much of a rock music lover unless it is alternative rock. However the lyrics of this song tugged my heart string and I couldn’t help but agree that it echoes my sentiments now.
Deeper by Delirious
I wanna go deeper
But I don’t know how to swim
I wanna be meeker
But have you seen this old Earth?
I wanna fly higher
But these arms won’t take me there
I wanna be
I wanna be
Maybe I could run
Maybe I could fly
To you
Do you feel the same?
When all you see is blame in me
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
I wanna go deeper
But is it just a stupid whim
I wanna be weaker
Be a help to the strong
I wanna run faster
But this old leg won’t carry me
I wanna be
I wanna be
Maybe I could run
Maybe I could fly
To you
Do you feel the same?
When all you see is blame in me
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
Maybe I could run
Maybe I could follow
It’s time to walk the path where many seem to fall
Hold me in your arms
Just like any father would
How long do we have to wait?
How long?
We’re goin’ all the way
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m living just to fall
More in love with you
The wonder of it all…
And the wonder of it all…
The wonder of it all…
And the wonder of it all
Is that I’m fallin, fallin, fallin
There’s distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you’re always here
But the comfort of you near is what I long for
[CHORUS]
When I can’t feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can’t hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray
And I want you more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I’m made more faithful
All the folly of the past, though I know it is undone
I still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right
So I whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge,
knowing you’re the only one who knows me
You know me
[CHORUS]
[BRIDGE]
Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want
