I was browsing the links at http://demandyourdignity.com/ when I came across this website entitled Empowered Traditionalist. As I read through some of her articles, I find my heart resonate with the messages in there. I think after a while I tend to forget that as a woman I am precious, not because I deserve it but because of God’s grace.
Blessed
May 29, 2009 at 2:34 pm (Courtship Moments)
I am so tempted to delete all my posts and start all over. The perfectionist in me speaks! Haha!
Lily from Gabe
Anyway, Gabe and I met up with Ps Victor and Kelly yesterday for our Taylor Johnson Temprement Analysis results. It was interesting to see both our graphs, first on how we perceive ourselves and next how we perceive each other. Gabe’s perception of me was incredible. It was almost the same as how I perceived myself. I’m blessed to have such a guy who knows me so well and to think that I thought he was forgetful and not really listening whenever I speak. :p I think I did quite alright with my perception of him too. Haha! Though it’s not quite similar but hey for a non-auditor, it’s a good attempt. 
The conversation also revolved around some of the issues we faced as a couple, sharing of God’s hand upon my life – how Gabe and I got together, the incidents that happened along the way, the near misses etc. I was close to tears sometimes and I think if I were not at a public place, I would have cried my eyeballs out. (Ahh.. the vulnerable part of me)
Walls
February 17, 2009 at 10:20 pm (Courtship Moments, Friends & Family Moments, Me Moments)
What’s with the crowd that gives me jitters?
What’s this wall between the both of us that prevent the whispers of your heart to reach me?
Why am I afraid to reach out? For fear that I may receive the same sting that was given me a few years back?
Yet in both our holding back, we are closed in this wall of silence. Our words fall like empty bottles on the pavement – loud but meaningless.
Oh Lover of the Souls of Men, draw us past the pretense and mask. As we come face to face with You, may we have the courage to peel the layers of facades and connect on a deeper level. You alone know how our hearts yearn for that. You alone know how lonely it can be when men seem together yet still far apart.
We will dance
February 5, 2009 at 10:45 pm (Courtship Moments, Music Moments)
When you first held my hand and we walked, we were such a clumsy couple. Sometimes you would step on my toes and other times I would trip over you. Our moves were comical to outsiders. To us however, the efforts seem daunting. We expected to glide over the sidewalks just as skaters dance on ice yet it is a challenge to even walk a few steps without tripping over each other.
There were tears.
There were frustrations.
There were many sorry and forgive me.
And there were many…
Let’s try this together again.
So we picked up where we left.
We talked.
We communicated.
We turn aside from our interest.
We chose to look at what’s best for the other person.
We learned to laugh
… at our mistakes
… at our tripping over each other
Slowly we learn to trust, to value our vulnerability as we unveil our hearts to each other.
We are not the same.
Our steps when started were not aligned.
However as the music begins to play a lot more longer, we learned to dance together.
You the lead and me the follower.
Slowly my head begins to rest upon your shoulders.
Your grip relaxes and soften.
We begin to dance…really dance as one.
Dear love, let’s dance.
I’ve watched the sunrise in your eyes
And I’ve seen the tears fall like the rain
You’ve seen me fight so brave and strong
You’ve held my hand when I’m afraid
We’ve watched the seasons come and go
We’ll see them come and go again
But in winter’s chill, or summer’s breeze
One thing will not be changin’
We will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We’ll spin and we’ll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I’ll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance
Sometimes it’s hard to hold you tight
Sometimes we feel so far apart
Sometimes we dance as one
And feel the beating of each others hearts
Some days the dance is slow and sweet
Some days we’re bouncing off the walls
No matter how this world may turn
Our love will keep us from fallin’
And we will dance
When the sun is shining
In the pouring rain
We’ll spin and we’ll sway
And we will dance
When the gentle breeze
Becomes a hurricane
The music will play
And I’ll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we will dance
The music will play
And I’ll hold you close
And I won’t let you go
Even when our steps
Grow weak and slow
Still I’ll take your hand
And hold you close to me
And we, will dance
14 Oct 2008
October 14, 2008 at 12:10 pm (Courtship Moments)
Today is the birthday of a special man in my life.
When I first met him, it was in a campus youth cell group. I was but a university student while he a young working adult.
I remember the many advices he would give us as CG members:
- Read the Bible in context!
- Lay a strong foundation before you enter the working world for it is very different from that of a student life etc.
Many of his advice I took it with a pinch of salt until experience taught me the wisdom of his words. *Grin*
He was a friend I often run to whenever I need a word of advice. Over a burger, some fries and a cup of coke, we would share and more often than not, he would knock some sense into me, bringing me to the core of the issues I faced.
Now, he is more than just a normal friend. It’s funny how life works out sometimes. 
This is just a simple post to say to the guy I love: I celebrate with you on this special day as you enter a new chapter of your life. May the Heavenly Father’s love continue to overflow in your life.
Happy birthday, Gabriel.
Who you really are
September 23, 2008 at 2:57 pm (Courtship Moments, Friends & Family Moments, Short Musings & Quotes)
A relationship that has the element of vulnerability, transparency and intimacy is like a mirror that reflects who you really are…
