Hunger
I came back today… feeling hungry.
Hungry physically – the fainting type of hunger.
After I fed the physical hunger. I was still hungry.
However it was a different hunger.
It was a hunger for friendship and for companionship.
At first I thought it will stop there.
But the hunger went even deeper.
I realized I was hungry for Him.
Out of my wandering in the desert, when I know not hunger anymore, I suddenly felt a ravishing hunger for Him.
And it hit me – how hungry I have been. Yet I did not know.
One can get used to that. Hunger that numbs the senses till you no longer felt it.
Until one taste again the sweetness of food.
First it aches. Aches so much that it goes deep down within ones gut.
Then slowly the sweetness enters – to fill the aching hunger and awaken a deep longing -
Longing that has been buried deep inside.
Longing that have been masked by rebelliousness and stubborness.
I miss you dear Heavenly Father.
Even in my foolishness, You stay true.
May my hunger for You never ceases.
There is joy in loving you and of putting you in the centre of it all.
I feel somehow I am home.
Home in Your arms.
Home in Your love.
Home in You.
